nilly deen

thrusted and pinned
full of sin
it was the ceremony
of a boy's belonging

upon the gravel,
now the drying grass
beneath the broken boys
bodily longing

whose pain is this:
is it yours, or is it mine?
the ceremony is silent
with the open green

i guess it was cool
to be fucked at school
and i thank my saviours
for washing me clean

Leeds, UK // February 2023